He's nothere to badger me though. No, he's here pestering my mom. Why didn't my mom say goodbye to his wife when we left the wedding party? She did say goodbye, I was there with her! Why did we get a dog instead of visiting my grandmother? My mom was getting over a cold and was still slightly contagious. Only people with very low immune systems would have caught it at that point and my grandmother would have! The rescuer said it was fine to come by. At the same time, my family from Oregon came down here for the wedding but went on to Santa Barbara for a week before coming back down here and taking a flight home. The day before they left for Santa Barbara, my grandmother collasped (we found out later it was from a weaker heart and the heat). Sooo my relatives when to Santa Barbara. The mother of my cousins is my grandmother's daughter. You would think my grandmother's last child would give a shit? Noooo we called Grandma but didn't go over there. There isn't a bus to my grandma's so I couldn't go myself.
Now my brother is bitching to my mom about me. Why haven't I gotten a job? Why do I not have a driver's liscence? Why am I still living at home? We am I fat? Gee let's think. You can't get a job so easily in this damn city, hell it's hard to find a job anywhere! Add the fact that I have no experience (I had major troubles as a teen and my parent's didn't want me to have a job), so nobody will hire me! I don't have a drivers liscence because I do not want one. I am terrified of driving and I would make a mistake the first time I am cut off. But that's ok, I should drive anyway because it is the path to independence. Nevermind the fact that I take busses everywhere and only go with my mom when she's going to the same place. I think that is independence. YOu don't need a car to be on your own, especially when gas prices are so high and in this city, you can't get nearly everywhere by bus. I am still living at home because of my lack of job. Why do you ask? Well, without a job I have no money except for my monthy property checks (I have investments that my grandparent's set up). I get $162.50 a month. THat is not enough to rent an apartment in the worst part of the city! In fact, none of that money is spent for myself. That's all for the rats and pigs. I am trying to get a job so I can move out, but it is not easy. Why am I fat? A few reasons. One is stress, I eat when I'm sad, angry, or stressed. With a brother in my life, how can I not eat then (heh). I also had overweight birth parents, genetics people. I have a slow metabolism. I do exercise and I try to lose weight but with my family always hasseling me, it's not easy. I try though. I don't want to be a twig, hell I can't with my bone structure. My goal weight is 160 which would be just a bit overweight for my stature.
Blah, now my brother is harassing my mom about being Jewish. He forced her to go to their "present opening party" on a Saturday. My mom did NOT want to do that. We stayed at a hotel because the wedding was a Friday night. Unfortunalty, mom and I were both too stressed to realize we forgot to get a neighbor to feed the animals. I was paranoid about Fuzz and the pigs so I drove home. Mom would have but I said I would do it so she couldn't break her sabbath. I swallowed the baseball in my throat and did it.
My brother everybody, is a complete asshole. Ahh, he just left. Mom went into her room and closed the door :(