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Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 03:49 am
Rest in Peace

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Rest In Peace Gizmo

Gizmo died. I kept telling him to hold on and fight it for just a few hours longer...then he would be at the vet and would be on medication.
I had him in bed with me. He was lying on a hot waterbottle. He kept gasping for breath. I told him to fight. When he started spasming I told him that he could go. I knew he was drowning in his own liquids and I couldn't do anything about it. I debated shoving a tube down his throat with a baloon to suction the water out, like they do with near-drowned victims. But I'm not a doctor...or a vet and this was real life and not a book. I knew I would probably end up killing him instead of helping. I would either burst his lungs or it would go down the wrong tube and I would puncture his stomach.
So I just held him while he spasmed. It was horribly familier ground since I held my dear rat Hamlet the same way while she drowned back on December 3, 2003. His lungs shut down and he spasmed a little longer and was still. His heart still beat a bit but I knew it would also cease after a few minutes. This was 3:08am
It's now 3:28am
I held him a little longer not believing he was gone. He was very skinny. Not the reasonably chubby pig I rescued from the trashcan two Thursday's ago. This happened suddenly. He was fine yesterday morning (Sunday) and went to the vet for another checkup. He was fine....or everybody thought he was fine. I went to go take him out of his cage earlier....around 3pm and saw that he had crusty eyes and was chirping on every breath. I knew he was sick. The vets were closed and I just didn't have the money for an emergancy vet. I wanted to take him but I just didn't have the $500 minimum for them to say "we can't do anything for him. That will be $500"
I made sure he took in water...and gave him some strawberry which he took a few nibbles of. I feel like shit for not being able to take him to the er vet but it might have killed him sooner. The stress might have done it. I don't know. Maybe I should have gone beyond broke for him. I have only $180 for an emergancy fund for my rats, which I would have used on Gizmo if I thought it would be that cheap. All the money I have goes to my pets. Nothing for me. It goes to their aspen, food, and toys. And their medical bills. I know what to do for a rat if an emergancy comes up. Almost always I can hold up till the next day when the normal clinic is open because I know what to do.
I tried the techniques that help rats in that situation on Gizmo. Hot water bottle, put him in the bathroom with the hot shower running, made sure he stayed warm, and made sure he got liquids. I read up as much as I could but it didn't help
My guinea pig is dead and I can't but feel that I could have easily prevented it. Were those noises in fact happy noises? Were they respitory like I initially feared? That website said it was happy noises but are happy pig noises and sick pig noises similar?
I blame myself but most of all, I blame that asshole that threw poor Gizmo in the trash. Was it those 4 minutes in the trash, exposed to high 50's temperature that made him sick? I don't know...all I know is Gizmo is gone
I didn't know I could get attached to an animal so much so fast. I had him since April 7 and he died early April 8. Not even two weeks :(

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These a few days ago. You can see that his health was visably fine :-\

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Some older ones;
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This is the day I got him :(

Current Mood: crushed


Box Of Sorrows
Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 11:11 am (UTC)

Don't know what to say :-(

Have to look at the positive, at least his days were spent with someone so caring and loving instead of him dying in a waste bin. From the sound on it I doubt there would have been much of anything that could have been done.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 11:35 am (UTC)

i'm so sorry :(

when i commented about the chocolate, i thought gizmo was a rat.

i have two pigs myself, but they've never been sick. like you, i try to read up on as much as possible just in case, but there's so little we can do without veterinary training. guinea pigs are notorious for hiding their illnesses, and it's very common to lose one so suddenly like this. you did nothing wrong. on the contrary; gizmo probably spent the last few weeks of his life happier than he's ever been.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 12:56 pm (UTC)

I'm at a loss for words right now after reading that. I don't know what to say, but atleast you did save him from dieing earlier and you did give him a great short life the time you guys did have together.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 02:10 pm (UTC)


I'm soooo sorry. He was so adorable. At least he had a good home for a while where someone actually loved him and cared for him and wouldn't throw him in the trash like his previous owners. And who knows, maybe there was a reason you were there at that exact moment to see that happen to him and to look into that bag and find him.

*hugs again*

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 02:29 pm (UTC)

I am so sorry baby :(
from what you are telling it sounds like guinea pig plage (i do not know the english name ) it is a really nasty desease that will afect the lungs and later befll other organs death can come overnight thhere lungs fill up with mucus and after autopsy all the insides are full of puss ,poor little guy :(
Baby yu havve to disinfect everything ,because it is very contasious and whilst rats usually don't die from it they can get it and get really sick... i once took in an abandoned ppig from a woman ad it worked fine but after about 3 weeks it died and after thhat all my pigs goot it and died every singel one out of 7,although i went to thhe vet .It i not your fault ,the person who put hhim in thhe trash is ,if anything you made him happy the last days .I mm sorry for you loss you have lost so many of late .

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 02:31 pm (UTC)

As you see i was using my daughters key board and it has issues :P
sorry about that :P
P.s disinfect nd bleach everything I do not remeber if it was a virus or not ..

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Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 03:34 pm (UTC)

I totally agree! rats can give pigs their germs and pigs and give rats the grems also....

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Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 05:28 pm (UTC)

Poor little Gizmo. I'm sorry hon. I've had pets die in my arms too and it breaks your heart everytime. Major *huggage*. it sounds to me like there really wasn't anything more you could've done for him. You were good to him and that's what counts.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 06:38 pm (UTC)

*hugs* ;_;

Mom, dad: I'm Gaelic.
Mon, Apr. 18th, 2005 06:51 pm (UTC)

I'm so sorry. *hugs* Poor Gizmo... He looks super-healthy, clean and happy in the photos. I'm sure you're not responsible for his death; it's just one of those fluke things. He's lucky he had you to love and protect him for the final weeks of his life. Without you, it would have likely ended there in that trash can. At least he could finally know that someone loved and treasured him. ^_^

Tue, Apr. 19th, 2005 12:16 am (UTC)

I'm so sorry Gizmo died, please don"t blame yourself, you loved him and took realy good care of him, and there was nothing you could have done.
Your getting a big hug from me.

Miss Used
Tue, Apr. 19th, 2005 04:00 am (UTC)

Oh sweetie I'm so sorry :(
Do NOT blame yourself....
At least dear little Gizmo knew what REAL love was for that short time....
At least he didn't die in fear in that bag....
He passed in comfort, and felt safe...he felt LOVE.
That's more than anything he could have asked for.

You're a great person....
Don't doubt yourself for a minute.