March 7th, 2005

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One of my girl rats, Opal, is getting to be a real pain in the butt. She grabs my hand whenever I put it in the cage and pulls and pulls. The worse she's given me was some scraped skin but it does really bug me. She isn't doing it out of aggression or hunger. She has started doing it to my hairless gal Fuzz who just takes it (which is really bizarre since Fuzz is a tough alpha gal)
I'm thinking Opal is trying to assert her dominace and become queeen of the cage and she treats me like any other rat. So, whenever I put my hand in the cage I quickly grab Opal and pick her up (she won't bite when I do that)
*sigh* Silly rats with low egos ;)
Weird Al -- with me

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Just wathced Escape From Sobibor
Really made me think. I have decided that before I die I will go to Poland and visit all the death/concentration camps sight. I feel that every Jew should go (hell every HUMAN). You never really know the true impact of the Holocaust unless you see something like that with your own eyes.
I went to the Holocaust Museum in DC and it really opened my eyes. This was years ago. I always knew about it and thought it was terrible but didn't know the depth of the horror. In that museum, there's an actual train car that was used to transport the prisoners. Walking through it just sent chills down my spine. You could FEEL the terror. There was a pile of shoes and toothbrushes and some Nazi books made out of destroyed Torahs. It was terrible
At the Museum Of Tolerance here in LA, there is a replica of the Aushwitz gate. It was bone chilling.
On that note, my mother knows this Irish jew that really boils my blood. First of all, I never knew I could be annoyed by an Irish accent until I met this man. His voice grates on my last nerves. Anyway, here's the convo:
Him: All those self proclaimed palastineans need to be killed off
Me: Heil Hitler
*mom gasps*
Him: that is NOT the same thing
Me: Yes it is. If it's right to kill off all the palastineans then it was right of Hitler to exterminate all those Jews.
Him: No it isn't! The palastineans are evil!
Me: And Hitler thought we Jews were evil. Doesn't make all that killing right.
He was speechless by that time. Mom agreed with me and she hate the palastineans.
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Weird Al -- with me

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How the hell am I supposed to be independent when I'm being ordered around by my therapist!?
I don't make my appointment today because
a. I was cleaning and lost track of the time and
b. Im' sick (I go to class sick though)

So he calls me and says "You can come in at 6:30"
I tell him that I' sick and I don't want to come in. He says "oh it's ok. You can come in anyway"
WTF?! How the hell am I supposed to be confident enough to lead my own life if a person that isn't even family is ordering me around?!
Mom takes the phone and happily chats to him. Saying I've been doing basically good. I hear "Oh she'll be there"
WTF?! I tell her that I'm not going and she says "You are going. Then we can go to BestBuy afterward!"
What the hell? She thinks she can bribe me with BestBuy!?
He acts just like my brother! He makes dead rat jokes! He says that I shouldn't drop my class! Why the hell should I continue with this guy?!
But I know if I don't go mom will start that "I want you out of this house" shtick. It's a no win situation. I stay home and get bitched at, becoming miserable. I go there and I feel like a worthless piece of shit. You guys are the actual reason I'm getting better. I went to Disneyland with my friend and riding Autotopia made me kinda sorta want to drive! Not him! "Well you wouldn't have to ride the bus for two hours if you drove"
That won't work on me. I LIKE to ride the bus! My brother says "It'll make mom's life a lot easier. But I guess you're too selfish to care"
What the hell!? Mom barely drives me anywhere anymore unless we are BOTH going there! She still takes me to Whole Foods because it's impossible to carry all that stuff in my bag (I tried it once)
Guilting me into driving is not the way to go. I'll drive when I'm good and ready.
He (therapist) reminds me of my brother and my brother is not one to share your damn feelings with!
*sigh*
I better get ready to see my damn therapist. And to think, 30 minutes ago I was happy
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I went to the PetCo on Santa Monica and Doheny. I went there specifically to talk to machina's friend Jenner about a job. They are activally hiring and she's really nice :)
I looked over the conditions and I love it! It's better then the Westwood PetCo which I like. The budgies were in those glass things but there weren't a lot so it wasn't crowded. The rats were seperated by sex. There was a black berk and an adorable himi girl in one tank and a siamese boy in another tank. And it was aspen and CareFresh! The reptiles and amphibians were well cared for (didn't see dead lizards)
So I got an application and I would rather work at this one then the Westwood one (even though I do like the Westwood one).

I went to my therapist. Mom took me. He said "why didn't you bring the photos of your room like I asked?"
Me: Because it is between mom and I. Not you.
Him: I am the person to help you improve and your room needs improvement
Me: You do NOT help me improve.
So he called my mom to find out about my room (it's still super messy but I spent hours on it today)
So when mom told him it was still messy he said "well then that's why she didn't bring the photos"
I replied with "No, I wouldn't have brought the photos even if it was spotless! It is between my mom and myself! NOT YOU!"
Then I told him that I was doing better emotionally and really the only days I'm a bitter crying loon (not exact words) is when I see my brother and when I see him.
"That is such bullshit. Don't blame others for how you feel"
I hardly think I was blaming them. I did NOT say "It is YOUR fault that I'm a basket case!"
So at that point I said "I am THIS close to walking out" to which he replied "go ahead!"
So I did ;)
He said "that right. Run away from your problems"
So I met mom at the Borders and I picked up some more Holocaust books. Then we went to PetCo. She didn't get on my case (I guess it's because I did go even if I walked out ;)
Oh yeah, as I was walking out I said "I don't even know why I come here! Oh yea! It's because I'm forced to!"
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Little Big Head isn't as strong as he used to be. He isn't using one foot but it isn't injured. He just doesn't use it. I think that side of his brain is messed up. She isn't sure of himself anymore :(
Weird Al -- with me

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A family friend's daughter came to us seeing if we wanted a free siamese. She informed us that her teacher's "purebred" siamese had a litter. I asked "is your teacher a cat breeder?"
"No she just has that cat. It's a girl cat who got pregnant from one of her adventures."
Ok
1. Her cat is unspayed
2. Her cat is an unspayed cat who gets to go outside.

I inform her that our balance is good the way it is. One more cat and our boy Desi would kill us all.
So does anybody in the Los Angeles are want some FREE "siamese" kittens? I can tell you now they aren't purebred. The female probably isn't a purebred since it's a shelter cat (I do know that some purebreds are in shelters but I saw a photo of this cat and it is NOT purebred)
Her teacher lives in the valley

PS-I emphisize FREE because I think that offering kittens free is a sure bet to some SPO with no intentions of spay\neutaring coming to adopt
Mo, do not even THINK it! I don't want your mom coming after me with a chainsaw
Weird Al -- with me

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Hmmmm
Who should I breed June to. She's in heat and I want to breed her. She's a merle and I believe it shows up in mink based colors. Maybe I should breed her to Gabriel....he's a mink dilute