I keep telling myself I'm going to post on LJ more but I just...don't! Ugh. I'm pretty addicted to tumblr and twitter and that's eating up my internet time. However, I'm trying to go a whole week without using either site so maybe I can spend more time here? Here's hoping!
2012 was an interesting year for me. In some ways it was one of the best years of my life but it was also the worst. I was suicidal many many times in 2012 and my depression was out of control. 2013 hasn't started out well in that department. I'm hoping to find a medication cocktail that works. In June I went to the UK for the third time. My mother went with me and I had fun showing her around the place. In the rain. Haha Last August was the best August of my life. I went to six Weird Al concerts in that month alone. I got to see Al after each show, it was wonderful!
In October I went to my very first con; GMX in Nashville. I met Doug Walker who I adore and made some new friends! In December I saw Steam Powered Giraffe in concert for the first time. SPG is a really great band that I recently discovered. They're singing automatons! Go check them out on youtube.
This year I'm hoping to go to more cons. My mother and I are also looking into going on an Italian\Greek cruise in September. In November I'm planning on going back to GMX.
I'm a huge fan of Weird Al...I mean huge. He's my favorite person in the entire world and he's also my hero. He's helped me get through my teen years. Hey, it's okay to be weird. Look at this guy, he makes a living on being a weirdo! He's also saved my life....I mean that literally. He's pulled me out of the dark with his music. Meeting him was surreal. I was prepared to be disappointed but when I met him and told him how much he's helped me he pulled me into a hug. It went beyond my expectations and my love for him grew...how is that possible!? Anyway, I try to go to as many shows as I can but I'm really going overboard next month. I'm not just going to Vegas or Central California... Take a look at my schedule for August: August 2: Fly to Las Vegas. I was originally going to drive but I drove to Vegas a few months ago and it killed my knee. x__x Anyway...fly to Vegas and then drive 2 hours to Laughlin, NV August 3rd: Concert in Laughlin!!! Then after the concert I drive back to Vegas August 4th: Concert in Vegas!!! August 5th: fly home from Vegas August 12th: drive an hour and a half for the concert in Costa Mesa August 13th: Drive 12 hours with my mom and a friend from Britain to Saratoga, CA August 14th: Concert in Saratoga, CA (near San Jose) August 15th: Drive 12 hours home from Saratoga, CA August 18th: Fly to Portland, OR and meet up with a friend. Drive 6 hours to Medford, OR August 19th: Concert in Medford, OR August 20th: Drive 6 hours from Medford to Portland, OR August 21st: Fly home from Portland, OR August 24th: Pick up best friend from LAX and drive two hours to Ventura, CA August 25th: relax August 26th: Ventura concert! August 27th: Drive two hours to drop off friend at LAX
THE END So....am I nuts? xD
EDIT: Oh yeah! I'm going to New York City in October to see Craig Ferguson. If Al is within an easy train ride's distance from October 4th to October 12th you know I'll be seeing him there too! xD
I wonder how many people still follow me... The last year has been hectic. I've been fighting my depression and trying to keep myself busy with traveling. I want a job but...I just can't. The idea of a job fills me with horrible anxiety. I hope one day I can have one but right now I have more important things to worry about; my health. I've gained so much weight this last year, I'm at a very scary weight. I'm in the process of joining a program that will prepare me for the surgery. I hope I can make it that far because my insurance won't let everybody have the surgery. I need it...nothing has been working and I'm terrified that I'll die before I hit 30. I've been doing some traveling. I went back to the UK last July as well as June of this year. Last year I went with one of my best friends and this year I went with my mother. I'm going to be traveling around next month to follow my favorite person in the entire world; Weird Al. ♥ So...hi!
I can't describe my thoughts on Troy Davis' execution but I can try. It was wrong. He was strung around for twenty years. Will they execute him? Will they not? He got a three hour window of even more torment. Then it was over, he was to be put to death. His family wasn't even allowed to be there at the end. No goodbyes for Troy Davis. He died surrounded by people that wouldn't mourn him. People that didn't care whether or not they were about to witness a potentially innocent man being killed by the state. It's wrong. There was considerable doubt of his guilt. The death penalty carried out on a man that could very well be innocent? A man that had evidence pointing to his innocence? Considerable doubt that this was not the killer? It's so very wrong. The system failed him. The country failed him. We failed him. Rest in peace, Troy. It's a crime what happened to you, may you find peace wherever your next path takes you.
One last thing. Will this make the country wake up and realize that we need to change things? I doubt it and that breaks my heart just as much as Troy's death.
It was my third time meeting him. Well fourth if you count when I was eight and didn't even remember...I'm so thankful that he's easily accessible to his fans. The man is my absolute hero, has been since I was 10. I've loved his music since I was six but he became my hero when I hit the big double digit birthday. He's helped me get through school, get through bullying...he helped me. I didn't give up. I saw that somebody awkward, intelligent, nerdy, and weird was well liked. Here was this goofy musician making it big on an accordion of all things! I personally think accordions are cool but I know it's not really popular. But there he was being popular and being loved...it helped me think that maybe I could be well liked even though I'm awkward and weird. Love him ♥
This time next month I'll be in London again, I can't wait. Life has been quite...interesting. I've had horrible days where my depression took over but I really shouldn't complain. I have a fairly good life, supportive friends and semi-supportive family. I've met both of my heroes in my life and I have wonderful friends. I was financially sound to splurge on myself. But unfortunatly I used buying things as a medication for my depression and it cost me. I'm not broke but I can't afford to splurge anymore...and yet I do. I'm getting better, I'm forcing myself not to buy things I don't need. I'm forcing myself but it's hard. It's sort of like eating with me, I eat as a medication...both are destructive but I'm fully aware my overeating is more harmful than my spending. Anyway, I didn't want to make this post negative..and yet I did. Figures huh? :P
I'll be in the UK from July 1st to July 17th, it's a longer trip than 2009. I'm going to some new places this time! I'll be in the same places as last time; London, Edinburgh, Bath, Lacock, Stonehenge, Glencoe, and Paris. But this time I'll also be on the Isle of Skye and in Glasgow! This time I'm going with one of my best friends and I'm so so thankful for that gift. During my last tour I made a wonderful friend in Monica. I still talk to her all the time and I love Monica, she's an awesome person. I hope my best friend and her hit it off, I'm sure they will! Oh yeah, Monica will be going on the trip again if you couldn't tell.
While in London I plan on doing some of the same things but I'll also be doing new things. I'm going to the Doctor Who Experience, Much Ado About Nothing, the Museum of Natural History, and hopefully the Eye.
I'm very excited about this trip and finally meeting my best friend in person. ♥
I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. I do the same thing every day. I eat the same things every day. And I talk to the same people every day. That wouldn't be too terrible but most of those people are having a negative influence on me. I will always love my mother but she's wearing me down emotionally.
I've decided to become a Park Ranger but it's difficult. I can get seasonal jobs with parks as one of the people working in the stores. I'm fine with that but to become an actual Ranger I'm going to need some experience and classes. Hopefully I'll get that experience and I already plan on taking those classes.
In the meantime I'm thinking of getting a job in the travel industry. I enjoy researching for my trips, it's fun for me. I also help my friends when they make travel plans and they tell me I'm good at it. Making a career out of finding deals and places for people might be something that's right for me. We'll see!
Very excited for my UK trip! A week in London and ten days in Scotland. I haven't decided if I'm going to stay on after the 17th of July yet.
Twitter has taken over my internet social life. I'm still on LJ though, I lurk.
I can't even begin to say all that went down in 2010 but I can mention some key points.
I had a very interesting year. It was filled with a lot of good things and a lot of bad things. I was at my lowest emotionally and mentally this year. I had a few breakdowns and I can honestly tell you I'm not over it.
After Craig Ferguson joined Twitter I became more involved with that site. I met so many wonderful people through Craig's "Robot Skeleton Army" (RSA). I can say now that some of these people I consider family. I met one of the most amazing people through this community, somebody who I consider a best friend now. In fact, we're going to the UK next year together! More on that in a bit. I'm thankful everyday for Craig Ferguson because not only does he make me smile on an otherwise dark day but he also let me meet all these amazing people on and offline.
Speaking of the RSA, I went to both New York City and Nashville this year for some Craig stand-up shows. The shows themselves were amazing but it was really meeting the people that I loved. Especially Nashville; we stayed ni the same hotel and hung out together. It was really special and one of the high points of my year.
I had the privilege of traveling a lot this year. Las Vegas, New York City, Boston, DC, Nashville, Yosemite, and Chicago. I will be going to the UK again next year for another Harry Potter Fan Trip. I've been saving and paying it off a little at a time. I will see the last Potter movie in Scotland. I must admit that I'm not as crazy for Potter as I used to be, my fandom interests have moved elsewhere. I still love it as much as I did though, even if I don't go overboard like I used to. I'm really looking forward to that trip again.
I had some worries this year; worries for myself, my family, and my best friend Monique. She had a lot of health problems this year and wasn't getting the help she needed. I'm happy to see she's in a better situation now but I know it will be a constant battle. I help her in the ways that I can, I know I'm making a positive difference in her life and that is one of the things I grasp onto when i'm feeling at my lowest. I'm worried about myself. My depression was absolutely terrible this year. It's still pretty bad but for the last week or so I've been on a neutral zone. I have never had suicidal thoughts before 2010. It got to the point at times where I was thankful that I was talking to a friend at that moment. They pulled me out of the pit, I'm afraid of what might have happened if I wasn't talking to somebody at those times. I even went on medication again but it's not really helping. We're still trying to find the correct mix for me. I'm also worried about my weight, I'm at a weight that I promised myself I would never get to. I'm an over-eater, I know I suffer from a food addiction. It's a vicious cycle; I get depressed so I eat and part of my depression is triggered by my overeating. I'm trying to help myself in that way but it's difficult. Very very difficult.
I guess that this post went on long enough. I hope 2011 is a much better year for me. And for all of you that are still following my LJ, I apologize for the absence. I'll try to post more.